MCIS Memories

Peter Toronto, ONT, CA

This was the first time I went to a concert with a friend from my baseball team opposed to going with my Dad. I remember the security check was intense, the most thorough check I have ever encountered till this day without a metal detector. Security even made us take off our shoes. Instead of the Zero shirt that Daniel bought, I went with white tour shirt. I loved that shirt and wore it out until it was no longer recognizable. The show was amazing and is still one of the best shows I have ever attended. I have listened to this album a million times over and it still resignates with me today. The album and its songs always triggers strong emotions in me and will continue to do so until im gone.

My brother

Kellye hanna St Augustine, US

Just want to say thanks my brother and I shared a passion for music and mellin collie was one of our favorites to put in and listen to everytime I play the CD I think of gin he passed this feb from ms and he was my ride or die when it came to music concerts and just having someone to talk to I miss him everyday 

Ozzmosis

Barry Lafayette, US

I snuck out at midnight to go to the record store to buy this.  Ozzy had a album coming out same day so they were having a big opening at midnight for his album. I went in and bought Mellon collie, I was the only one there for the pumpkins holding the alternative torch lol.,.they took my pic and sent it to ozzys people as they thought it was kinda funny yet cool. Got it the second it came out. Awesome.

Growing Up

Ryan Tempe, AZ, US

MCIS came out when I was 8 years old. This was the MTV era, growing up with baby boomer parents who loved music I was always lucky enough to be enamored and ensconced in a house with rock and roll running through its veins.

I had seen the videos to Bullet and what I kept calling “1976” on accident. I learned of my mistake when I called our local radio station KUPD to request it, and was embarrassed by a radio employee who wanted the little kid off of the phone and had no problem correcting me haha.

My dad was always willing to listen to new music, even as my parents grew up on The Beatles and that amazing era of music he had no problem staying current. I saw the double-disc package of MCIS and was instatly intrigued. Once I snaked the album from my dad, I was off and running. There’s a song on that album for every mood or situation, happy or sad, loud or quiet. Two hours of music for me at that age, I felt like I had days worth of music. 

I don’t have some great story here, other than that album is my favorite album of all time. The music has stayed with me as I get older and everytime I crank it up I am instantly brought back to a time and place and a happiness of growing up, being innocent and discovering new things.

I took my wife to the Shiny tour and saw both Phoenix shows from the last couple of years, and what an exciting time it is to be a fan. Forever grateful to this band and the announcement from today had me anxious to tell my story of this album. I’ve gone way over 300 characters, but what can I say this album hit me with one cupid’s arrow from under it’s coat.

Take care

Brother’s First Concert

James Newport News, VA, US

I bought tickets to see the Smashing Pumpkins in Richmond, VA for my Younger Brother and I. It was canceled due to WPC having Laryngitis. But we got to go on the reschedule. It was his first concert.

A friend who keeps you up and running

Roberto Fulde Bautzen, Saxony, DE

MCIS was (and still is) like a friend. Whatever mood I was in, there was a song for it. In gym class we’re allowed to bring our own music. I made a tape with Zero as the first song. Hearing it in my school’s gym gave me so much energy. Some classmates were put off by this, but my teacher liked it.

The Great Discovery

Marcos Austin, TX, US

I was a full on Pumpkinhead by the time Mellon Collie came out. I was 15 and had been playing guitar and bass for about 2 years. This album became instrumental npt only in my development as a musician, but in helping me navigate the often confusing times of youth. I didn’t understand everything Billy’s lyrics meant, but I got enough to feel like someone understood how I felt. This album sounded like how I often felt – a roller coaster of emotions! The included picture is of me now, obviously, and of my original album which is still in excellent condition.

Best Witches at the Best Concert

Kelly Hermantown, US

It was September 22, 1996. I just remember us getting as orange as possible, and giggling and singing on our 3 hour ride to Minneapolis. The concert was perfect. Billy was mesmerizing. I remember the walk out with with what must have been a bazillion fans, was electrifying. Magic. All magic. 

Busted

Justin Durham, NC, US

When I was 14 (this would have been 1995) I shoplifted MCIS from a KMart in Winston Salem, NC. I got out to the parking lot before a pair of police officers stopped me and brought me back inside. The worst part was that my mom was with me. She was Christmas shopping (this was the weekend before Christmas). She cried in the car all the way home. She had refused to buy the album for me because of the presence of the track “Fuck You”. So I did what I felt I had to do. 

The next year I got a job at a grocery store and bought the album properly (quite possibly my first music purchase with my own money). So that’s the story of how I loved SP so much it made my mom cry 🙂

#magicalmomentsbykevin

Kevin Waters Reno NV, US

I remember watching the MTV video of tonight tonight. The music video and music wowed me. It stuck with me. Just this past week I did a photo shoot that was inspired by the song and video. It has a dark feel with creeping shadows. Victorian styled dress. As I photograph the model I was humming the song. I had an issue figuring out how to load a photo.

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First band

Cheryl Poff Santa ana, California, US

Went to a sleepover in Jr. High and tonight tonight was the first music video I actually remember and fell in love with.  I remember we went and listened to the whole album upstairs and she had a Billy Corgan shrine she had just made in her room.  After listening I saved up all my baby sitting money to get the cassette. I remember she made fun of me. But it was all I could afford at the time. I would play that till it died. 

Also remember getting in trouble in Washington D.C. cause bullet with butterfly wings came on MTV and my friends and I decided to do a mosh pit in our room. 

Ditching School To Buy The Album/Picture Of Soma Shows.

NRG San Diego, California , US

October 24, 1995. I ditched classes in high school to buy this masterpiece when “Tuesday’s” used to be new release day. Morse High School. San Diego, California. The minute lunch started, friends met in the parking lot and drove to the local music store at the mall. Didn’t go back to the last two periods because of this Just to drive around downtown and listen to this album in Balboa Park. Young kids with dreams.  Why can’t we make an album like this. This sort of thing doesn’t happen anymore. Artists that sticks to their ideals and still be rewarded for it. It was very weird to see this band reach pop crossover. Even my local hip hop radio station played a remix version of 1979. Some friends loved it. Some friends hated it. But we all agreed it was very ambitious to see this sort of thing happened. The Pumpkins were in the big leagues now and its a great feeling to see a band you grew up with achieve the success they deserve since day one. Again, something one rarely sees. Mellon Collie for me encompasses everything about human life. Happiness, Sadness, Love, and everything else
“If you’re giving in, then you’re giving up…” a line from “Here Is No Why” thats practically etched in my mind forever from the first time I heard it. Prevented suicide.

1980

Christian Santiago de Chile, CL

October 23, 1995, “Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness” was born, one of the most important albums of my life.

It was the first cassette I bought betting on a band I knew little about, and it was without a doubt the best musical decision of my 15 years just turned. I remember that I bought it at a record label of a white gallery on O’higgins street in Copiapó. It cost me 5,990 CLP, and it hurt to spend that money, I used to collect to buy known music, I already had a good part of the Soda Stereo discography, but some were missing, new music was coming out of the Chilean bands “los tres” and “la ley” Even though I bought “Invisible” from “La Ley”, I still invested in this double cassette, it was still cheap, two original tapes for 5,990 clp, a good price.

“Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness” opened my ears to louder, more powerful and melancholic sounds. From that day on I began to listen to more varied music, I put more ear to Nirvana and Pearl Jam, to listen to rock music in depth.

Hearing this record is a true luxury, because the name takes you into what the record means, a sway of loud and soft sounds, it reminded me of black and white, all in the same record, that was impressive, it was one of the cassettes that I have listened the most, and for the rest, of which I have taken the most care. The 5 singles that come off the album are jewels on their own, 1979 and 33 my favorite singles of my life. 1979 was probably the most famous, it sounded everywhere, and the video simply illuminated my 15 years wanting to live life like those video guys (then when I saw part II in the “perfect” video, I didn’t want that much anymore).

“Tonight Tonight” is one of the most beautiful songs I have heard, in a true example of what the whole album is, with a beautiful video that won the best video / song award from MTV 1996, it is a song you must hear in your life, and for those who know me best, they will know that this song is on the list to hear at my funeral.

Today he turns 25, and has aged as the best album of the band, Billy’s creative process was impressive, and it was demonstrated what genius he was to make this album, only in one room, there are no artists like him left.

It is simply one of the records that I always listen to, I have the pleasure of having the original version on vinyl, the double Chilean cassette version and the beautiful American version on double cd. The most beautiful thing in life, I saw it happen with these songs. Thanks to The Smashing Pumpkins

Best Night Ever

Jake Liverpool, GB

Got into SP late, I was 26 when I first bought and listened to MCIS. One song stuck out, Tonight, Tonight. Listened to it over and over again with my girlfriend, and we found something in it that really resonated with us. It became our song. Fast forward a couple of years to 2018 and we travelled to Bologna, Italy to see them live at the Unipol arena, front row to boot. I’ll never forget the shivers run up my spine and the rush of blood to every edge of my body, triggered by the emotionally fuelled intro to Tonight, Tonight. I held my girlfriend close. We both sang until it hurt. I nearly cried, and that is something I don’t remember doing for many years. There are things you’ll always remember, then there’s things you’ll never forget.

Billy’s voice saved me

Kris AU

I was suicidal.. for so long I was arrested. I was apparently dangerous to myself – but not others.

The only songs I wanted to hear were on MC&TIS.

Billy’s voice and my love for my daughter are the only reasons why I’m alive today.

INSTANT MTV HIT

Mónica GB

A rock song with  strong & memorable poetry about hope. Unconventional drums, moving strings. The melody is captivating from the very first second. 

A Lumiere-style video clip. 

The never before seen concept. The novelty and freshness are unanimously embraced. 

On repeat on MTV. No matter the repetitions, it is never enough. Recorded and added to my video playlist so that I can put the attention in every detail, in every shot. 

Mesmerised every single time and forever inspired. 

They must be something else because the band has an Asian guy and a girl as members  and this act is indisputably celebrated, its musicianship is praised, its artistry statement accepted. 

And beyond the iconic song and video, an album defining what epicness is in music. 

My 50th birthday happy

Kris US

Told my 21 year old daughter that for my 50th birthday I wanted the lyric “And I still believe that I cannot be saved” 4 times around my arm plus she had to add cherry blossoms – because so pretty!

Life Changing then & now

Erik Fort worth, TX, US

Fan since ’92 at 10 y/o. I distinctly remember first hearing BWBW on the day of its release and saying “woah…is this Smashing Pumpkins?!” and instantly becoming more excited than I’d ever been waiting for release day. Told everyone I knew to go buy it, and waited eagerly for the day. My dad drove me to Best Buy to get it, and I remember the feeling of getting home, opening it up and being so blown away by the layers, textures, dynamics, lyrics, artwork…everything. A true masterpiece that was the soundtrack to my life then & now. Long, dark nights of depression that this record helped me through but now stands as a testament to life, love, and endless possibilities. Eternally grateful for this album.

Infinite Brightness

Miyu JP

This album touches my heart every single time. When I was feel down, MCIS made me feel so relieved more than once…  
I especially love the lyrics from this part of Tonight, tonight.
That life can change that you’re not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we’re different
Tonight, So bright
I want to say thank you so much for this beautiful, magnificent, gentle album.
Lots of love.

Radio Dreams

Woo Baltimore, MD, US

I was in high school in ’95, and I had this cheap radio/cassette recorder that I would listen to before going to bed, usually to the big alt-rock station at the time (WHFS). I would have to put my ear right up next to it though, as the volume knob was broken and it would only play super quietly. SP was one of my favorite bands at the time, and one night the station started playing SP’s live debut of MCIS and I hit record on the cassette tape I had in there so fast. It was late at night but I just held my ear up to the radio for the entire performance and fell asleep elated after having heard one of the best albums of all time.

An Ode to No One

Bryant Lukes Prince George, BC, CA

I was 11. It was the first CD I ever bought. Bullet was devastating Muchmusic with the mood of emptiness, lathargy, hope, isolation, and bondage that I was feeling. “An Ode to No one” without the fuck you on the album back cover got it past my Mom’s censorship. An album of greaty beauty immediately fast forward to “here is no why”, “bullet”, and “to forgive”. No time to listen to it in its entirety until Friday… Cue Robert Smith..

Christmas Tour Tickets

Marquise Brack Seattle, WA, US

Growing up SP was my favorite band (and is!). When they were touring MCIS my parents told me I was too young to go to the concert (I was 10 and utterly devastated). Christmas Day came and the very last present under the tree was a pair of tickets to the Seattle show my Dad had gifted me. Sorry, Mom! Unforgettable show and the best Christmas gift of all time. Thanks, Dad!

I Will Always Remember….

Melissa Hartley Baltimore, MD, US

I remember getting Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness (double album) on the day it came out, October 24, 1995. It was on a Tuesday, remember when they would release albums on Tuesdays?? Those were the days! I was in 8th grade living my best life! I had saved my chore money to buy it. I came home did my homework right away. I just couldn’t wait until my dad got off work to take me to the music store to get it. As soon as he pulled in the driveway I ran to his truck! On the way I talked his poor ear off about how much I idolized the Smashing Pumpkins and that this record would be rocking! As soon as I entered the record store I took off! I couldn’t wait for my dad, I wanted that record! I remember just running over to the releases and there it was! I think I screamed and jumped up and down lol! When I got into the car I ripped open the plastic on the cd. I checked the cool art work throughout the inside. When I got home I rushed upstairs and put on the first cd….my young mind was blown. I then listened to the second cd….still I was blown away. I just couldn’t believe the sound that was coming from my speakers….I must have listened to it three before going to bed. I took it to school with me the next morning to show my friends and to listen to it on my disc-man at recess. I was totally in love with this record by far….Fast forward 25 years to 2020. I still listen to this record a lot. I can’t tell you how many times certain songs saved me from that album especially when I was super depressed and lonely over the years. It’s funny how I can sit here and remember that day back in 1995. To this day my love for the Smashing Pumpkins has never changed…

But no one’s asking for the truth, So let me tell you

Noni Newcastle, NSW, AU

I hesitated to submit anything here, because when I try to think back to those times, I mostly just feel detached.  My brain put a lot of effort into sealing those kodak moments and a lot of that pain away, and the end result is that I don’t really remember a lot of details and I doubt my ability to genuinely convey the difference this album made to my tiny little world, Obviously in the end I decided to just blurt that out and let you all make of it what you will, because whilst 25 years later I might not be able to explain how I felt back then with any eloquence, I can confidently say that having that music to connect to, and giving me one small private space where it was ok to feel pain and rage and resentment and hurt and honesty and tenderness and hope and even just pleasure in the pure beauty of sound, that made all the difference in the world to me.

And I do believe that being fortunate enough to have the option of an emotional outlet that acknowledged and reflected the full variety of feelings that make up life, left me better off as a person. Life isn’t made up of just anger, or sadness, or happiness. It’s not just tender, or harsh, or warm, or cold. It’s all of those things and a million more and I think that’s something that MCIS demonstrates beautifully.  I will always appreciate having the escape, and having that emotional outlet, but I think looking back as an adult I have a new found appreciation for the honesty and integrity of that larger statement, and for the personal investment it must have required to create a single work that encompasses so much.

Mellon Collie takes you by the hand, and leads you through, then tucks you safely into bed.

As Far As You Take Me

Chris Adelaide, AU

MCIS was the very first CD I ever had. I got a copy on my 12th birthday when I got my first CD player. I had seen the video clip for BWBW and I thought it was incredibly cool. I also liked the idea of getting a double album because it gave me more to listen to. My parents weren’t overly impressed by the track An Ode to No One, mainly because of the full title in the booklet (they were less impressed later that year when I purchased AntiChrist Svperstar, but that’s another memory).

I’m grateful for how good MCIS was, and the impact it has had on me. I became a guitarist because of this album, and for the past 25 years have made amazing friends and memories because of what this album inspired in me as a musician. If I had bought another CD I suspect my life would have been very different – this album has had such a big influence on me. 

The silence of the middle 8…

Robb Swansea, GB

Seeing the live at Brixton (UK) on MTV made me realise that SPs were the best band in the world.. world .. world..  The silence for the middle 8 of BWBW and how perfectly they came back in. Full Tilt Incredible!!!!

Best lyric of all time….

And you know you’re never sure

But you’re sure you could be right

If you held yourself up to the light

(PS much better than ‘The Wall’)