Welcome to Chicago

Kevin Monroe, WA, US

Was lucky to Win tickets, airfare and hotel to your hometown of Chicago and saw your show at the Riviera. Was and incredible show and a memory I’ll never forget.

Soundtrack of 1996

William Princeton, NC, US

I was in tech school for the USAF to become a fighter aircraft mechanic. My roommate bought the album and he played disc one non-stop for weeks, he would also put the first two tracks on repeat and listen to the for hours on end. Surprisingly, I never got tired of hearing anything from that album, and Porcelina of the Vast Oceans, Galapagos, and Jelly belly became my favorites. Eventually my roommate ended up owing me a bunch of money and he paid me off with his copy of MCIS.

My 1st album

Liverpool, GB

One of my favourite albums and was the 1st album I really loved, I must have been about 8/9 at the time. My dad had it on tape he recorded from a friend and I would listen to the 1st side all the time. Wasnt until I was older I purchased it and really appreciated it fully from the artwork to the production notes. The title track will forever be my funeral tune and I loved how they ended the album how it started. An amazing double album


Tavis Los Angeles, CA, US

Falling asleep while listening to “1979” play on the radio from the boombox in my bed as a young kid and then dreaming of what the music video might look like.

A Friend’s House

Scott Alan Wheeler Houston, Texas , US

I was 15 years old in 1995, and I went over my friend Chad’s house and he had the double-disc of Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness. I remember enjoying the album very much, but also I loved the video and song for “Tonight” with the moon and stars and old-fashioned Hollywood Callback graphics!  Fabulous album, and wonderful memories sharing with friends.


Kevin Himl Nashville, TN, US

The album, melodies, and lyrics remind me of growing up. It reminds me of good times and bad as a teenager. Anger and rage, love and sadness. It reminds me of friendships and love come and gone. Talking about how mine blowing the guitars are this solo, and reading about the equipment setups in Guitar World (I still have a copy). It reminds me of a particular birthday gift I wanted but never got the year they played Nashville for the tour. And hearing about how awesome it was the next day, from some one now who doesn’t even remember going.

Like a familiar scent or a favorite drink, this album stirs up a host of memories of a simpler time of a world without so much worry.

Madison Square Garden

Steve New York, NY, US

I was so excited to see SP live at MSG for the first time. But you had to cancel the show due to overdose. So sad!

The beginning

Audrey Niort, FR

The MCIS is the album that made me understand i wanted to make music.

The first song i sang in public , in a main stage with 500 people, was ” in the arms of sleep”

It was in 2002 but the memory is steal perfect



Acid before our history exam

Steven Faulkner hinckley, GB

It was early June 1996, the night before our History GCSE exams. So of course 4 of us dropped acid, and my friend put MCIS on. For some reason I vividly recall We Only Come Out at Night sounding utterly magical!

I passed my exam too!

The best thing i’ve heard

Javier Silva MX

When I heard this album it was at night and I feel like it was something magical 

MCIS: tribute to a masterpiece

Filippo Banti PERUGIA, IT

Lots of memories recall me MCIS even if i was born years after the publication date it is one of the most important album for me. It reminds me 3 years ago when I was in Genova, for an internship at IIT. I used to listen to It in the shuttle from the last stop of the Genoa’s underground to the research institute, It was love at first sight and the album who introduced me to the wonderful and dreamy SP word. During those months I used to watch to the 1996 live at Brixton Academy, what a live performance, one of my all-time fav. Thank you for your music, It can really change your life in better, at least for me! SP for life.

The album that taught me how to write songs.

Anansi SP ES

After 2 years trying to become a guitarist, MCIS came out and taught me how to write songs not only with a guitar but with all kinds of instruments, harmonies and melodies. 25 years later, I still secretly hope one day I will be able to write a song that could be included in MCIS.
I stopped thinking like a guitarist and began to think like a musician.
Sometimes my friends tell me of any of my songs “Hey, that sounds like The SP”, my thoughts: “Then I fucking nailed it!”.

Not Just any Commute

Andrew Hunt Miami, US

I used to live in The Hague and worked in Amsterdam. Just over an hour commute each way. I went to the opening concert in Rotterdam and was so blown away that I listened to the double CD religiously every day on the train. It was a pivotal time in my life and every song takes me back.


Ulrike Preuss Ruhrgebiet , DE

I listened to the radio while doing housework. Than there was playing tonight tonight. I imidiadly left my home for driving to the town and bought this amazing album, it is great!

Happiest memories even with a broken heart.

Luis Olivera Saint Petersburg, FL, US

This album was there for me when i needed it most. Tonight, Tonight was/is there when I feel alive. 33 was there when I missed my favorite people. To forgive and Stumbleine made me feel better after the hard times that come with relationships –  familiar/ platonic/ and romantic. And I hope to name my future little one Lily because of the way I personally interpreted the song. This album is named infinite sadness but it’s brought nothing but comfort and joy to my life. Even now when I’m suffering through multiple existential thoughts and seeing more sad days, this is one of those albums you can play and have it all fade away. Thank you for this masterpiece and all your masterpieces before and after.

The Infinite Sadness Ends For a Bit

Keith Gerstner Austin, TX, US

Mellon Collie saved my life and made me realize I need to be an artist. I’ve never been confident in my ability as a performer, but the beauty and passion of Billy’s voice and songwriting made me feel like it was safe to be on stage with a voice that doesn’t match the “approved” idea of what a singer should sound like. I’m eternally grateful for that.

Mellon Collie/Jimmy memory

Art Eagle Pass, TX, US

I remember seeing the “Bullet with Butterfly Wings” video when I was 10 and being drawn to the galloping drum part…then at the 0:32 second mark, Jimmy hits the snare drum for the first time and it just clicked in my head…”I wanna be a drummer like that guy”…I’ve been following the Pumpkins and playing drums ever since then and MCIS is still to this day my “desert island” album.

Nostalgic growth

Cody Phillips Hixson, TN, US

MCIS to me was an absolute escape. An escape from middle school, when my angst was in high gear and getting bullied was the norm. If I could come home and throw these albums on and write poetry or draw, it took me out of reality, even if briefly, but that was bliss. These songs still carry me away to that time, and while some of those memories are harsh, it was a time of tremendous growth, and for that I am forever thankful.

Lockdown 2020

David Pattullo Liverpool, GB

March 2020. The UK has gone into lockdown and claustrophobia is setting in.

I’m allowed out only for essential shopping, to walk my 11 month old daughter to sleep, and to run late at night. The weather is unseasonably warm, and I use this time to listen to artists and albums I have wanted to revisit but never found the time.

I listen to all of Depeche Mode’s albums in the sun, and fall back in love with my favourite Smashing Pumpkins album Adore.

I decide to run to Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, an album I had wrongly labelled as inconsistent in my impatient adolescent mind. I fall in love with its harshness and delicacy. Night after night I repeat this, and my runs get longer as I want to hear more.

MCATIS becomes my clear favourite SP album. I also fall deeply for all the albums. Discovering new gems day by day.

Then when I thought I’d heard it all, Ogilala blew me away, and was a rare album to be universally liked by all in the house.

In conclusion, I want to thank SP for MCIS, and for the journey it has taken me on in these uncertain times.

In love since 1995

Margo Warsaw, PL

I remember going to a record store near my high school but couldn’t afford the CD,still remember the sorrow of having to put it back on the shelf ,did buy it after some time and some saving up and fell in love with it’s magic. Listened to it about a milion times since then and today I love it even more. Masterpiece.Has made my life so much better.In love since 1995.


Erna Schou Klemensker, Denmark, DK

My son was a huge SP fan since he was just a young kid… sadly we lost him in a car accident 7 years ago 😢 31 years old, newly wedded and a father of twin girls at two years old. We had “Bullit with Butterfly wings”. 4 years ago I got married to my loved one ❤️ I walked up the Aisle to “Mellon collie and the Infinite Sadness” ❤️ and it felt like my son was at the wedding to ❤️ and I too has become a huge SP fan 😍

The Holy Grail of vinyls

Kleber Junior Lisboa, Lisboa, PT

I already had it on CD, after years searching, I finally bought MCIS on Vinyl!

The Empty Bodies

Shawn Ward Toronto, Canada, CA

My bandmates and I have been huge Smashing Pumpkins fans since we were kids (we are all in our late 30’s now and nothing has changed), so when we came to the point when we needed a band name, we decided on naming our band The Empty Bodies, which is obviously a lyric from the song Bodies from Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness because that is collectively probably our favourite SP song. I included a picture of the album artwork from our second full length album which we released in July of 2019. Thanks for the opportunity to tell our Mellon Collie story and I’ll still be listening to Mellon Collie 25 years from now!

Shawn Ward

Wait There’s More?!

Josh Nichols Gilbert, AZ, US

When the album came out my oldest brother made a cassette tape that had half the songs. It was a selection of songs from both CDs. I was around 11 and knew nothing about the band, but ended up with the tape and listened to it nonstop. I was obsessed with it for a long time. Eventually I learned it was a double album and discovered the other half of the songs. It was a miracle to me! So much more amazing music at such a pivotal time in my life. It was a gift to discover something I loved so much was only half of a whole album. I got to fall in love with the album all over again even more!

My first concert

Amber Geiger St.Louis, Mo , US

I grew up in rural Southern Illinois in a town of less than 200 people. I saved my babysitting money of $2 an hour to buy the album. It changed my life. The first time I heard Muzzle, I knew I was meant for more than conservative farm life.

My cousin’s parents drove us over an hour to see The Pumpkins when they toured for the album. It was my first concert, I was a freshman in high school and I can close my eyes now and see it all. I remember the cover of Norwegian Wood, and thinking it was the best night of my life.

This album shaped so much of my adolescents. I’ve never left it and listen to it often. I remember the struggles of being a teen in a small town longing for more and realizing that it was out there. I got out, saw the world and let it change and shape me. I no longer fear I’m ordinary, I came of age with this album in my ears I’m extraordinary. 

Poor college student

Steffanie S. Ho Ho Kus, US

I loved the Pumpkins since I was a college student and Gish was released.  I saw The Pumpkins at the Cleveland Agora theater right before Siamese Dream was released.  A few years later Melancholy was released right around when I started dating my future husband.  He had never heard of The Pumpkins and I told them about the amazing artists that make up the band.  A day later he bought me the Melancholy album, I knew then he was the one!  We’ve now been married for over twenty two years and have been to several Pumpkins and WPC concerts together.  We played Landslide as our couples dance at our wedding.   We can’t wait for future concerts to resume!

Bonding through MCIS

Richard Neiman US

I would sneak into my Brother’s room whenever he’d go out to raid his “cool stuff.” Comics, CDs, videogames, anything he had was fascinating to me. I found MCIS, and I loved it. I asked if we could listen to the “CD with the lady on it” once he got home. I’ll always cherish listening to it with him.

Travelling 1995 world trip

Dan Jordan Worthing, GB

25 years ago Myself and my now wife went travelling around the world for a year. Despite limited funds music was our must have and this album was bought in Thailand and was played relentlessly throughout the trip. It was OUR album and remains OUR album to this day. The trip was topped off In Brisbane Australia when we saw SP live and then to top it all when in Sydney at our local pub Billy Corgan dropped in to listen to some live Aussie music. We couldn’t believe it but I plucked up the courage to say hello sadly no mobile phones or cameras were available then so all just memories now but what a year, what an album and what a band👍

Teenage Angst

Gordon Normandy, FR

The album I learnt guitar to and helped mitigate the frustrations of growing up. Music was my methadone, MCIS the syringe most often used.

Thirty Three-Forever

Sydney Pittsburgh, PA, US

Before me and my boyfriend met in person, he sent me the song Thirty Three without knowing it was my favorite Smashing Pumpkins song. We met and fell in love and got tattos of the number shortly after. We have been together for over two years now.

True love

Maria Teresa Florence, it, IT

MCIS is me. MCSI is all i’ve felt and loved and hated for so long. Today, MCIS is the real me.

My First Love

Ash Rae Belleville, IL, US

When I was a teenager, I was into SO many types of music: classic rock, 80’s pop, alternative, you name it, I was all over the place because I was pulling inspiration from all friends and family. Smashing Pumpkins was the FIRST band I found all by myself! My first real love. MTV was on in the background of my solo art night in my bedroom (how I spent many a night) and I heard Tonight, Tonight. Interested in the music, I looked up to see Billy and I was hooked! Hot lead singer, incredible music, WOW! Perfection. I love you guys! The image is not MCIS, but it is myself and my late father in front of my Machina poster and it’s pure happiness.

Me and my son starting the day with the pumpkins!

Jean-Luc Moreira Brighton , GB

Early morning start with my 2year old son, with the pumpkins to Brighton up the day


Mattia Cornuda, IT

When I was born, my father used to put Mellon Collie loud on the stereo in our basement.

I was too young to remember it clearly, but one day when I was 20 I accidentally played the title track on the piano. I got goosebumps.

Thank you.

No Swears Allowed

Vanessa Hillsboro, OR, US

For my 8th birthday I got MCIS tapes and a yellow walkman, it was hands down the best gift ever! I would listen to it all the time, especially on the bus to school & field trips. At some point my mom noticed a few swear words in the lyrics & title of songs (An Ode to No One for example) so she used a black sharpie to remove them from the tape inserts that had all the lyrics on them. I was so upset (looking back, I get it). I must have been watching Antiques Road Show or something because I kept telling her she had “Ruined the value!” I just think it’s funny to picture an 8-year-old little girl fuming about the value of her tapes going down, haha. After the fact, I did notice a few swears she missed blacking out and that was my little secret for the longest time.

Discman Dreams

Peter Prouty Detroit , US

I was 15. I was on a boy scout trip in Islamorada, Fl. I was in a tent on Big Munson island.  I had borrowed MCIS from a friend, listening to it on my discman. Never before had I heard such passion, such yearning.  I felt like Billy was singing my story, directly to me. I became a lifelong fan from then onward. I’m 42 now, and to this day it’s still my favorite album of all time.


Richard Knoxville, TN, US

I first learned of the Pumpkins through the “Tonight Tonight” video. My Dad bought me the guitar tab book for MCIS and its part of what made me want to play guitar! Always wanted to see SP live but I was too young.


Tatiana Maluf Sao Paulo, US

Wow, 25 years ago I was 18.  Time passes and memories remain.  I’m glad.  MCIS could be the soundtrack of my life.  Many shared, happy and sad moments.

I recorded k7 tapes with my favorite songs, one with happy songs, the other with sad ones.  At the time, my best friend went to London to study, and asked me to take k7 tapes with him.  26 years ago, communication was precarious and calling was very expensive (I live in Brazil), or I wrote a letter or faxed to his school.  After a few months he sends me a fax saying that he was terrible, super sad and that the k7 tape was not helping at all.  I thought it was strange that he was torturing himself listening to only the sad songs and I asked him why he only listened to the sad ones, if the happy ones were beautiful and maybe it made him feel good.  He replied weeks later saying that he did not know that the other tape was happy, he thought that the entire album was of melancholy and sad songs, that he only listened to the sad ones because he had # 1 written.  And that the happy songs were good for him, he felt good and remembered me whenever I listened to any SP song.  When he came back he brought me an SP shirt.  The famous black T-shirt with a silver heart.  Our favorite song is 1979 and he still lives in London, he is still my best friend and he still listens to SP and remembers our youth S2

MCIS Literally Saved My Life and Maybe Many Others

Taylor Phillip Clark Medford, Oregon , US

I was a junior in high school in 2018-19. I was very lonely and I was suicidal, and was even breaching into thoughts of shooting up my school. Then me and my dad were talking about music on the car ride to my school, and he mentioned Mellen Collie. I looked it up on youtube at lunch that day and I was captivated, I listened to the while album constantly especially dring those lonely lunch hours where I had no one to hang out with or talk to. I would just walk around town on my lunch blaring MCIS in my ear buds. This album prevented my sucicde and even a possible mass murder. It got me through the loneliness.

Artwork for my birthday

Renee Jackson, mo, US

In 1996, my brother drew this for me because he knew we had no money for a cake or presents. He knew I was obsessed with mellon, so he spent a week drawing it for me. Then in 2005, I had a house fire. I saved my daughter and this drawing, but lost everything else. That’s how much the record has meant to me, it saved my life!