Ciara Richmond, Va, US

I remember going back and listening to the deluxe version of gish and hearing demos, mixes. And studio versions. I felt so complete after it, like I had come full circle after Siamese Dream, Pisces Iscariot, MCIS, Aeroplanes, and Adore all came out.

Pumpkins Peppers and Pearl Jam ay the Aud in Rochester

Guy Rochester NY, US

Very Influential

Chris Charlotte, US

I made a mixtape for a girl that I had a crush on in High School with songs from Gish on it. The girl still didn’t go out with me, but she did start dressing like Billy Corgan : /

Merch pic

Matty Edmonton, CA

Just wanted to say that the 2012 Oceania tour was absolutely magical, it’s a beautiful album and it was an absolute delight to see performed entirely.

Smashing Pumpkins Reunion Tour

Penny Queens, NY, US

On my way home after seeing the Pumpkins at Jones Beach in August 2019. 

Teenage angst

Ferran Gimeno València, ES

Winter of 2000. 15 year old me. My dad took a picture of me trying to cheer me up, as I just broke my leg playing football, and I just returned from hospital. Music was my way to escape reality. SP were non-stop on my record player. Dawn to Dusk. Twilight to starlight. A lifechanger. 

Playing it out

Gilberto Morales San Juan, Puerto Rico, PR

Smashing Pumpkins have been my favorite band since the first album came out. This is the guitar I learned the first album on. 

Family ties

Jollie San Francisco CA, US

My parents taking me to another amazing pumpkins concert.  My mom is a huge fan since early 90’s and we share the experience of loving the songs!!

Tonight, tonight

Chiara Guidobaldi Foligno, IT

Firenze rocks 2019. One of the last festivals before covid. Your first gig I’ve ever been to. I love you. I miss you. Come back. ❤️

my favorite smashing pumpkins memories

David Gorman Dallas, TX, US

i heard i am one at a record store and I was hooked immediately. I streamed gish on Spotify. Unknowingly i played a song from siamese dream on rock band im pretty sure it was today. and that’s what got me into siamese dream. Which has classics like today, quiet, disarm, cherub rock, mayonaise etc. after siamese dream i heard zero and I got into mellon collie heavy. jellybelly, tonight tonight, zero, take me down, xyu, where boys fear to tread, 1979 etc. I love smashing pumpkins so much

my daydreams

wang xin shenyang, CN

drum, music style & leading vocal is my top triple, billy create a new form of music to hit everyone. whole album is less than 50 minutes, but feel more than 24 hours, what a masterpiece!


Reza Medan, ID

infinity sadness tour is my wishlist from smashing pumpkins 

First tour and MTV

Mark Philadelphia, PA, US

Seeing them on a bill for the first time opening for the chili Peppers in New York , with then unknown band Pearl Jam on the list, MTV interviewed people after the show asking what they thought of the opening act , I went on and raved about Smashing Pumpkins blowing everyone away , and they stopped me and they said “ no, we mean Pearl Jam”  When Pearl Jam got famous first I realized the politics in the music biz was real, because Smashing Pumpkins blew everyone away and MTV only wanted to talk about Pearl Jam.  

16th Birthday

David Piet Buffalo Grove, Illinois, US

July 19, 1997, Saturday afternoon… I got my driver’s license in the morning at the Libertyville DMV. My older sister was nice enough to let me take her car that day, a metallic green Jetta with a 6 disc changer in the trunk. I dropped Gish in and drove around listening to that album on repeat. I’d listened to it a zillion times before that day and certainly 10 zillion times since but for whatever reason, that day, that moment, a scorching hot, sunny summer afternoon, driving up and down Lake Cook Road, every time I hear Snail, I think of that day. It was perfect.

saved by the bell

willem Sint-Niklaas, BE

i remember laura-ann, writing me a letter

i remember concetta (M)

i remember hearing (TM) a doorbell ring, on snail…

i remember wondering why, and why not

in my memory, 300 characters are not enough


Megan clemson, SC, US

The smashing pumpkins have always eluded me, having been born a year after their debut album released. I grew up listening to rock music, following the footsteps of my older cousin who loved the pumpkins. Besides adoring “1979”, I was pretty intimidated by them. They seemed too.. intense and smart for me, even though no other band has ever seemed that way to me before. I think I projected the sort of reverence I felt for my cousin onto them. He was always a little too great for me to cling to, I admired him more than I could understand. He was always out of reach. He always wore his ZERO shirt in high school. He took his own life last summer, I was devastated. I got to keep one of the shirts in his closet, and I picked his ZERO shirt, though not really feeling much like a SP fan yet. It’s sat in the back of my closet for months until a few months ago, while looking for clothes, I felt hypnotically compelled to grab a hold of the shirt and just.. be with it. Later that week, amongst his old collection of books and dvd’s his family has kept, I found the music video collection and decided to watch it instinctively. I was immediately so impressed. I had no idea Gish was so beautiful. I’m so in love. I just wish I could ask him what he thought of these songs. The CD for Mellon Collie is kept in the cabinet with his ashes. I know their music comforted him a lot in his life. Thank you smashing pumpkins. 

Trip to the Mall

Rizzo E Longmeadow, US

It was probably 1998… maybe ’97 so I was probably 12… I had fallen in love with the singles from Adore that were coming out and had gotten melon collie which was just such a juggernaut of an album… I was very quickly becoming a fan. My mom brought me to the mall because I had “earned” a new cd.. these mall trips back then served as a chance for me to fill in my pumpkins collection for what I had missed. I walked into Sam Goody and decided on Gish. Took it home and the rest is history. From that day (probably 12, in 6th grade), until now my very favorite song in the world is Rhinoceros. 

Going Fishing

Alexander Mount Vernon, US

I was on vacation with my friends family in the summer 1999. We went to the Florida keys for week.  We went fishing on the boat first time for me. We used live bait to catch Fish.  On that trip I took my CD player with me and listened to Gish on the boat and at the condo. One day I felt like I was sick so I stayed in bed listening to Gish my friends mom said I needed to get out and enjoy the vacation…. I won’t forget feeling sea sick on the boat and.listening to Gish….    One of those memories.

Gish en casa de mi amigo

Marcelo León Sánchez San Fernando, CL

Recuerdo en casa de mi amigo Cesar a mis 14 años, escuchar en su casa Gish, después de comprar el cassette doble Mellon collie y fue mágico ver a Billy con su cabellera y escuchar shiva… hoy 2020 me regale al fin Gish y tener su discografía completa, gracias SP por darme la música de mi juventud y hoy a mis 40 años la música de mi vida….

Hot Vibes and College Converts

Tim W Washington, DC, US

I vividly remember hearing Cherub Rock on the radio in the summer of 93. My job that summer was running around Southern Illinois refilling and fixing various snow cone shacks that were set up in random parking lots all over the region. As I drove down the back roads the opening guitar riff and Billy’s voice sent electric chills through my body. The full Siamese Dreams CD was released soon after and I bought it the night it came out. Thank goodness the crappy minivan I drove through the blazing hot corn fields that summer had a CD player. I blasted that album over an over again getting a full left arm tan. When I got back to college in August, SD remained in my CD player for the first week until my ‘friends’ heard it and immediately stole it so they could play it on repeat. They weren’t even alternative rock fans. The album was that hard to ignore. When I finally got it back it was all scratched and I had to go get another copy. The only upside was we all trekked up to Kalamazoo that next spring to see them live. Epic! Thank you Billy, James , D’Arcy, and Jimmy!

Spark in a Routine

Alvin NYC, US

The routine of my morning commute through Queens NYC to midtown Manhattan quickly became a mundane tradition. The bustle of the city during the first phase of rush hour may seem exciting but it faded into the background of my mind as my headphones swallowed the subway noise and translated them into symphonies to my ears. But even then, Playlists get old. One particularly boring morning I heard the notes of cherub rock in my head and I immediately searched for the band. This would be my first thorough encounter with The Smashing Pumpkins. The nostalgic sound of the lyrics brought me back to my childhood, where I played guitar hero with my siblings. I clicked on Tristessa and never heard anything like it before. Much like many of my morning routines, at least one song from this album is played over coffee and is navigated through the tunnels of nyc. But I’ve yet to get bored of the sounds that sound so unique to me. As the album reaches a milestone of a birthday, tomorrow so will I. 

Metro Halloween 89′

Rich Wiley Austin, TX, US

Right place, right time. I was there to see Lost Cause. The Pumpkins were second and Jack Scratch headlined. I will never forget how blown away I was. From beginning to end. They had presence, power and most importantly…the songs. I still have my cassette of Moon. 

A whirlwind of hair and sweat

Jeroen Halle, BE

It was my first festival in 1992 I could attend in Belgium (Torhout/Werchter). Pearl Jam cancelled their show and replaced by the Smashing Pumpkins. Didn’t know the band, but as from the first note I was sold to their whirlwind vibe. The week after I bought Gish on CD and a ticket to see them in Vooruit, Ghent. The whirlwind was back. I still have a shirt we ripped from Billy s body while he was crowdsurfing. (Sorry Billy, we were young I guess). The Pumpkins are a band I experienced about nine times in the 90s in Belgium and I will never forget the pumpin bass, drums and snearing guitars and voices creating a whirlwind of hair and in sweat covered bodies. It was the power of Gish.

From 70’s prog to TSP

James in Canada Hamilton, Ontario, CA

I grew up listening to 70’s prog music. I loved the long, complex songs, the multi-layers and the musicianship. Although I liked a lot of music in the 80’s I could not find that first love in the music I was hearing. Then in 1990 a cute girl I liked was listening to her cassette walkman in the high school cafeteria and I asked her what she was listening to. She handed me her headphones and I heard a song that did absolutely nothing for me. But the next song changed my life. I would later find out it was called ‘Tristessa’ and she had taped it off the radio. That song got stuck in my head right away. It had what I had been looking for: a prog sensibility. I wanted to hear more. I went to my local record store and asked about it. They were able to track down the band with the strange name and they said they could order me two releases. Those releases were the ‘Tristessa’ single on SubPop and the ‘I Am One’ single on Limited Potential. When they finally came in, I was hooked. Then the ‘Gish’ album soon followed, on cassette first, then vinyl (currently framed and hanging on my wall as it was signed by WPC and JC at the 20th anniversary show at Massey Hall). The music spoke to me throughout and it really connected with my prop sensibilities. My friends called it grunge but I called it prog. They thought I was crazy and they moved on from TSP, but I have been here ever since. I saw the band live for the first time in 1991 and I have not missed a TSP or WPC tour since.

Forklift Jesus


July of 1991, I was in my first year slinging salmon in Anchorage, AK – a summer job to pay for college in Alabama. Forklift driver was the golden job, because you got to sit down, instead of standing all day. Plus the driver always had on headphones, and was always jamming out to something. (I assume OSHA frowned on this, but we were kids.) Anyway, one day that summer, Mr. Forklift paused, slapped the ‘phones from his sport Walkman on my ears, and said “Dude, listen to this.” It was Gish. And my brain woke up that day. 

After my shift, I went to the record store and bought my first copy. A tape. And I listened constantly throughout the summer to my new favorite album, and what turned out to be my favorite band of all time. I picked up the CD once I was back at school, then Lull, and so on. Over the years, I’ve been lucky enough to hang with the band, see a bunch of shows, and hear and love a ton of great music. All thanks to Forklift Jesus. 

I love Gish

Peter Porsgrunn, NO

I heard Gish, and I loved it. 

Rapha Forever

Jorge Madrid, ES

It was April 1997.

I was 13 and I already discovered the band through The Mellon Collie and Infinite Sadness the year before, which became my first cd ever. 

A friend of mine also liked The Smashing Pumpkins as much as I do and I lent him my Gish cd. 

Me and my friends were waiting the bus that would pick us up to head a skatepark.  While we were waiting, after a trick try, my friend’s skateboard went out of control crossing the road so my friend ran after it. All of the sudden, a car hit him and he passed away.

A few days after this fatal accident that marked us forever, some of my friends went to his mother house showing care and respect. She gave them back some stuff he borrowed from us as video games, skateboard magazines, VHS tapes, couple of cds… Gish was among the items.

His name was Rafael. 

The Gish break-up vinyl.

3ric 3acon Seattle, US

Bought this back in 2006.  First pressing of Gish, signed by the band the week D’arcy and James broke up.  The band mentions it in their signatures, D’arcy says she’s single.  Billy says disaster on it.  The record was signed at Tower Records in LA, they were doing a radio interview.  The journalist wrote the notes on a piece of paper using the record as a hardback, so you can see the indents of the notes taken still.  Later, in my own break-up, the record cover got torn apart, but I taped it back together, and I still have it in a frame.  If y’all want a closer shot of it, I’d be more than happy to send.  It’s a piece of band history that changed the direction of who showed up to practice and when, ya know?

Free Gish concert!!!!

Robert Stoltz The Woodlands, US

August 9, 1991: First time I saw the band was in Houston at the legendary old Emo’s. It was an unforgettable small venue experience where I was able to see the band up close and personal for what I think was them performing their best album as of today (Siamese Dream is a close second lol). Gish is one of those releases that would make my list of albums I’d have on a deserted island!!! 


jeff US

i was a metalhead, sabbath, priest,  megadeth, metallica, etc.  i did mushrooms and went to the Moon bar in New Haven and heard songs from a new band called smashing pumpkins. went to Cutlers Records and bought GISH the next day. Instant fan, it sent me down the road of janes addiction, nirvana, pearl jam, pixies, cult, cure. 80’s alt music. forever thankful Billy C and SP opened my eyes to so much great new music. Lights go out in Hartford Civic Center, fans cheer for a while, a spotlight shines on this giant man dressed in all silver on stage as he sings “the world is a vampire,” one of my favorite concert moments. Thanks for Gish !

I was there

Brad CA, US

Critical music during that era- never heard anything like it. The lyrics, dynamics, the drone, the volume- all made it amazing.

Staring at the Ceiling

Helena Handbasket Cape Town, ZA

13 years old. Lying on the floor in the dark, eyes closed. My first listen to Gish. Everything felt so uniquely and dramatically raw.

Still, to this day, 30 years later, I still feel that “all that you suffer is all that you are” and I am so glad I found the Pumpkins at such a young age. 

Gish Rocks!

Dan Manchester, GB

I was given Gish as a 17th birthday present.  It really blew me away and made me want to join a band.  It was like Guns and Roses but at the next level.  It really got me through some difficult times at school.  Thanks so much SP!

Dorm room

David Mismi, US

I clearly remember my buddy Chris and i playing Gish for the first time in my dorm room during my first term at Cornell… instantly entranced… as a drummer, I was instantly blown away by Jimmys smoothness and fills…and the sonic dynamics drew me in… 

6 months later seeing them in a small club back home in Miami Beach Art Deco district was the icing on the cake!  

Thanks for the memories! 

Discovery and thank you

Kara Tsukerman Atlanta, GA, US

I wasn’t planning to participate in this because I don’t have any distinct Gish memories. I became a fan in 1995. However, I listened to Gish and celebrated in my own way all day today and I was brought back to 1995. After buying MCIS at 12 and it completely changing my young (and future) life, I couldn’t wait for more SP. I quickly acquired Gish, Lull, and SD in a matter of weeks and started listening to all at the same time. I only remember hearing Gish and not understanding how it was a first album. I recognized it as a magical piece of art and I remember being shocked at how good it was and how much I loved it. I will turn 38 next week and do not have any words to express how much Gish means to me, along with every other album through Cyr. Thank you for being the music of my life. Being your fan has been such an honor. 

Subway Poster

Bryan Portland, US

I once owned a 5′ subway poster of the Gish album cover which adorned the walls throughout my college days – I fucking loved that poster and my parents through it out with the rest of my college shit when they moved – wish I had a pic!  

Vesuvius and Moonlight

Lisa West Chicago, Illinois, US

I had insomnia, and took to to the streets after midnight in my Camaro, the passenger’s seat overflowing with cassettes and joints rolled in my purse. One night I was past DeKalb after 1 A.M. and heard ‘I Am One’ for the first time on WXRT. I grew impatient for the DJ to name the band and the song, for I’ve never heard such explosive frustration layered with longing passion and electricity. My mind and my heart simultaneously exploded when hearing the opening drum beat which was shortly followed by an alluring bass line. Next came the guitars that artfully weaved together and played off of each other like two cobras swaying to a Pungi. From start to finish, the intensity of the song didn’t cease but when it finished, I was left with my heart pounding and with sweat on my forehead wanting to hear more.  As I kept driving several thoughts were colliding in my head-First, I needed to fire up a joint, second I needed to go to the record store in the morning to get a copy of ‘Gish’ (the first of three copies that I wore out), third I knew that Smashing Pumpkins were going to be famous, and fourth I knew that my life would never be the same again.    

Opening act

Tim Redway , US

Saw the video for Siva premier on 120 min, bought the album that week and loved every song, then my bro and I went to see you and Pearl Jam open for the chili peppers at the palladium in Warwick RI. We dropped acid and we’re in the pit and billy starts talking about caterpillars and the cauliflower king plays windowpane and blows my mind! Was one of the best shows I ever seen!


Derek Loud Johannesburg, ZA

The Gish tour. Its 30 years since the album release and I remember a friend recommended the band. It was such a great debut album and we played it constantly. I was with my two friends when we got some tickets to see them in 1991 in Manchester. We went for a drink at the bar next door and Billy was being interviewed for the local press. We introduced ourselves, had a chat and took some photos. Billy was very cool and friendly. The gig was amazing… sonic bliss. It was a small venue in Manchester and you knew the band was going to be something. Every song was amazing and the gig rocked. One of the best live bands at the time, it still is one of my favorite gigs from my youth. I’m still friends with two people I went with, in fact we all went for a few drinks last night to celebrate. Sonic gig! really sonic!


Missed opportunity

Bradley Memphis, US

I was a DJ at my college radio station when Gish was released. We played every song on the album. I had free tickets to see them at 328 Performance Hall in Nashville on that tour and I didn’t go because I was hung over from the night before. Smh.