I Was Wrong

Mark Los Angeles, CA, US

I was a contrarian, and I thought I wouldn’t like the Pumpkins because I wasn’t into rock. A friend told me to borrow his CD, and try it before I wrote it off. I put it on, and I played the whole thing. Then I played it again, and again, and again… Bodies is my favorite.

A little girl found her way

Elisa Bologna , IT

I was 9 years old when MCIS came out. I went to the record shop and bought the cassette for my father birthday. He liked it so much, we used to listen to it eveyday. It shortly became MY cassette, i just couldn’t stop listening to it. That album made me become the woman i’m today. Thanks for meaning that much to me! Much love <3

Opened the door to myself

Ren Johnson London, GB

I was a lost, lonely teenager. This album sat me down and soothed me before holding my hand through the toughest time of my life. Thank you Smashing Pumpkins!

From the past making the future that never gets old.

Josue Stein Madrid, ES

Dear Congratulations on this great achievement. I remember seeing on the TV news, in Venezuela, the launch of Tonight Tonight in 1995. When listening to this whole album, I always discover something new, feelings, sounds, hidden melodies. Its sound is … I don’t know how to write it. It’s a very passive aggressive sound, a lot of sarcasm, the humor within a Big Muff slap. As a beautiful and intelligent woman, she always brings good things. Thanks a lot. Many good times while practicing aggressive skating, friends, feelings. I hope to see you in Madrid when it can be played again.

Early 20s visions, feelings and dreams

Javi Garcia Madrid, ES

MCIS simply reminds me quite clear those early twenty years old,… when I used to listen daily MCIS simply because it really was explaining what was happening to me … some kind of sadness, rage, strugle, broken beliefs, broken dreams, … with lots of strength and energy. Sons like bullet with butterfly wings, zero, an ode to no one, love, bodies, xyu, tonight tonight, 1979 where the “soul” of thoose days. 

Of course I can remember how MCIS came to me… lots of people, events, circunstances where pushing me to buy this misterious record.

Jay n Steph’s party

April Santa Rosa, CA, US

Ok, this is bad. And good. I remember looking at the album artwork at my friend’s party, realizing I never bought it. Me, who saw gish live on Haight St. I was a devout fan from the moment I heard SP. But this friend had sent my future husband in for a haircut. We lived music. We fell madly in love to music. Both secretly on drugs, til we confessed. The songs swirled through the air all around us, but in love on drugs I never bought it. It was larger than life, so I heard it. This friend and I traded SP stories that night. He loved music as much as I did. I think all of us connected on the way we loved music obsessively. This album is that friend, that era, that party, that realization that I missed buying music I loved because I was in love. The love drug. 

I write this now, so many years later. 1 month separated. Living in a rabbit hole of my own isolated creation. Solitude. I want to feel what that album conveyed. It’s time to buy that album.

I miss SF and Juanca, Dina and The Smile House. How does my house have no name? Where has my creativity gone? Lost but not dead yet, this will help revive. Me. Thank you for the music. 

MCIS Memories

Peter Toronto, ONT, CA

This was the first time I went to a concert with a friend from my baseball team opposed to going with my Dad. I remember the security check was intense, the most thorough check I have ever encountered till this day without a metal detector. Security even made us take off our shoes. Instead of the Zero shirt that Daniel bought, I went with white tour shirt. I loved that shirt and wore it out until it was no longer recognizable. The show was amazing and is still one of the best shows I have ever attended. I have listened to this album a million times over and it still resignates with me today. The album and its songs always triggers strong emotions in me and will continue to do so until im gone.

My brother

Kellye hanna St Augustine, US

Just want to say thanks my brother and I shared a passion for music and mellin collie was one of our favorites to put in and listen to everytime I play the CD I think of gin he passed this feb from ms and he was my ride or die when it came to music concerts and just having someone to talk to I miss him everyday 

Ozzmosis

Barry Lafayette, US

I snuck out at midnight to go to the record store to buy this.  Ozzy had a album coming out same day so they were having a big opening at midnight for his album. I went in and bought Mellon collie, I was the only one there for the pumpkins holding the alternative torch lol.,.they took my pic and sent it to ozzys people as they thought it was kinda funny yet cool. Got it the second it came out. Awesome.

Growing Up

Ryan Tempe, AZ, US

MCIS came out when I was 8 years old. This was the MTV era, growing up with baby boomer parents who loved music I was always lucky enough to be enamored and ensconced in a house with rock and roll running through its veins.

I had seen the videos to Bullet and what I kept calling “1976” on accident. I learned of my mistake when I called our local radio station KUPD to request it, and was embarrassed by a radio employee who wanted the little kid off of the phone and had no problem correcting me haha.

My dad was always willing to listen to new music, even as my parents grew up on The Beatles and that amazing era of music he had no problem staying current. I saw the double-disc package of MCIS and was instatly intrigued. Once I snaked the album from my dad, I was off and running. There’s a song on that album for every mood or situation, happy or sad, loud or quiet. Two hours of music for me at that age, I felt like I had days worth of music. 

I don’t have some great story here, other than that album is my favorite album of all time. The music has stayed with me as I get older and everytime I crank it up I am instantly brought back to a time and place and a happiness of growing up, being innocent and discovering new things.

I took my wife to the Shiny tour and saw both Phoenix shows from the last couple of years, and what an exciting time it is to be a fan. Forever grateful to this band and the announcement from today had me anxious to tell my story of this album. I’ve gone way over 300 characters, but what can I say this album hit me with one cupid’s arrow from under it’s coat.

Take care

Brother’s First Concert

James Newport News, VA, US

I bought tickets to see the Smashing Pumpkins in Richmond, VA for my Younger Brother and I. It was canceled due to WPC having Laryngitis. But we got to go on the reschedule. It was his first concert.

A friend who keeps you up and running

Roberto Fulde Bautzen, Saxony, DE

MCIS was (and still is) like a friend. Whatever mood I was in, there was a song for it. In gym class we’re allowed to bring our own music. I made a tape with Zero as the first song. Hearing it in my school’s gym gave me so much energy. Some classmates were put off by this, but my teacher liked it.

The Great Discovery

Marcos Austin, TX, US

I was a full on Pumpkinhead by the time Mellon Collie came out. I was 15 and had been playing guitar and bass for about 2 years. This album became instrumental npt only in my development as a musician, but in helping me navigate the often confusing times of youth. I didn’t understand everything Billy’s lyrics meant, but I got enough to feel like someone understood how I felt. This album sounded like how I often felt – a roller coaster of emotions! The included picture is of me now, obviously, and of my original album which is still in excellent condition.

Best Witches at the Best Concert

Kelly Hermantown, US

It was September 22, 1996. I just remember us getting as orange as possible, and giggling and singing on our 3 hour ride to Minneapolis. The concert was perfect. Billy was mesmerizing. I remember the walk out with with what must have been a bazillion fans, was electrifying. Magic. All magic. 

Busted

Justin Durham, NC, US

When I was 14 (this would have been 1995) I shoplifted MCIS from a KMart in Winston Salem, NC. I got out to the parking lot before a pair of police officers stopped me and brought me back inside. The worst part was that my mom was with me. She was Christmas shopping (this was the weekend before Christmas). She cried in the car all the way home. She had refused to buy the album for me because of the presence of the track “Fuck You”. So I did what I felt I had to do. 

The next year I got a job at a grocery store and bought the album properly (quite possibly my first music purchase with my own money). So that’s the story of how I loved SP so much it made my mom cry 🙂

#magicalmomentsbykevin

Kevin Waters Reno NV, US

I remember watching the MTV video of tonight tonight. The music video and music wowed me. It stuck with me. Just this past week I did a photo shoot that was inspired by the song and video. It has a dark feel with creeping shadows. Victorian styled dress. As I photograph the model I was humming the song. I had an issue figuring out how to load a photo.

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First band

Cheryl Poff Santa ana, California, US

Went to a sleepover in Jr. High and tonight tonight was the first music video I actually remember and fell in love with.  I remember we went and listened to the whole album upstairs and she had a Billy Corgan shrine she had just made in her room.  After listening I saved up all my baby sitting money to get the cassette. I remember she made fun of me. But it was all I could afford at the time. I would play that till it died. 

Also remember getting in trouble in Washington D.C. cause bullet with butterfly wings came on MTV and my friends and I decided to do a mosh pit in our room. 

Ditching School To Buy The Album/Picture Of Soma Shows.

NRG San Diego, California , US

October 24, 1995. I ditched classes in high school to buy this masterpiece when “Tuesday’s” used to be new release day. Morse High School. San Diego, California. The minute lunch started, friends met in the parking lot and drove to the local music store at the mall. Didn’t go back to the last two periods because of this Just to drive around downtown and listen to this album in Balboa Park. Young kids with dreams.  Why can’t we make an album like this. This sort of thing doesn’t happen anymore. Artists that sticks to their ideals and still be rewarded for it. It was very weird to see this band reach pop crossover. Even my local hip hop radio station played a remix version of 1979. Some friends loved it. Some friends hated it. But we all agreed it was very ambitious to see this sort of thing happened. The Pumpkins were in the big leagues now and its a great feeling to see a band you grew up with achieve the success they deserve since day one. Again, something one rarely sees. Mellon Collie for me encompasses everything about human life. Happiness, Sadness, Love, and everything else
“If you’re giving in, then you’re giving up…” a line from “Here Is No Why” thats practically etched in my mind forever from the first time I heard it. Prevented suicide.

1980

Christian Santiago de Chile, CL

October 23, 1995, “Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness” was born, one of the most important albums of my life.

It was the first cassette I bought betting on a band I knew little about, and it was without a doubt the best musical decision of my 15 years just turned. I remember that I bought it at a record label of a white gallery on O’higgins street in Copiapó. It cost me 5,990 CLP, and it hurt to spend that money, I used to collect to buy known music, I already had a good part of the Soda Stereo discography, but some were missing, new music was coming out of the Chilean bands “los tres” and “la ley” Even though I bought “Invisible” from “La Ley”, I still invested in this double cassette, it was still cheap, two original tapes for 5,990 clp, a good price.

“Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness” opened my ears to louder, more powerful and melancholic sounds. From that day on I began to listen to more varied music, I put more ear to Nirvana and Pearl Jam, to listen to rock music in depth.

Hearing this record is a true luxury, because the name takes you into what the record means, a sway of loud and soft sounds, it reminded me of black and white, all in the same record, that was impressive, it was one of the cassettes that I have listened the most, and for the rest, of which I have taken the most care. The 5 singles that come off the album are jewels on their own, 1979 and 33 my favorite singles of my life. 1979 was probably the most famous, it sounded everywhere, and the video simply illuminated my 15 years wanting to live life like those video guys (then when I saw part II in the “perfect” video, I didn’t want that much anymore).

“Tonight Tonight” is one of the most beautiful songs I have heard, in a true example of what the whole album is, with a beautiful video that won the best video / song award from MTV 1996, it is a song you must hear in your life, and for those who know me best, they will know that this song is on the list to hear at my funeral.

Today he turns 25, and has aged as the best album of the band, Billy’s creative process was impressive, and it was demonstrated what genius he was to make this album, only in one room, there are no artists like him left.

It is simply one of the records that I always listen to, I have the pleasure of having the original version on vinyl, the double Chilean cassette version and the beautiful American version on double cd. The most beautiful thing in life, I saw it happen with these songs. Thanks to The Smashing Pumpkins

Best Night Ever

Jake Liverpool, GB

Got into SP late, I was 26 when I first bought and listened to MCIS. One song stuck out, Tonight, Tonight. Listened to it over and over again with my girlfriend, and we found something in it that really resonated with us. It became our song. Fast forward a couple of years to 2018 and we travelled to Bologna, Italy to see them live at the Unipol arena, front row to boot. I’ll never forget the shivers run up my spine and the rush of blood to every edge of my body, triggered by the emotionally fuelled intro to Tonight, Tonight. I held my girlfriend close. We both sang until it hurt. I nearly cried, and that is something I don’t remember doing for many years. There are things you’ll always remember, then there’s things you’ll never forget.

Billy’s voice saved me

Kris AU

I was suicidal.. for so long I was arrested. I was apparently dangerous to myself – but not others.

The only songs I wanted to hear were on MC&TIS.

Billy’s voice and my love for my daughter are the only reasons why I’m alive today.

INSTANT MTV HIT

Mónica GB

A rock song with  strong & memorable poetry about hope. Unconventional drums, moving strings. The melody is captivating from the very first second. 

A Lumiere-style video clip. 

The never before seen concept. The novelty and freshness are unanimously embraced. 

On repeat on MTV. No matter the repetitions, it is never enough. Recorded and added to my video playlist so that I can put the attention in every detail, in every shot. 

Mesmerised every single time and forever inspired. 

They must be something else because the band has an Asian guy and a girl as members  and this act is indisputably celebrated, its musicianship is praised, its artistry statement accepted. 

And beyond the iconic song and video, an album defining what epicness is in music. 

My 50th birthday happy

Kris US

Told my 21 year old daughter that for my 50th birthday I wanted the lyric “And I still believe that I cannot be saved” 4 times around my arm plus she had to add cherry blossoms – because so pretty!

Life Changing then & now

Erik Fort worth, TX, US

Fan since ’92 at 10 y/o. I distinctly remember first hearing BWBW on the day of its release and saying “woah…is this Smashing Pumpkins?!” and instantly becoming more excited than I’d ever been waiting for release day. Told everyone I knew to go buy it, and waited eagerly for the day. My dad drove me to Best Buy to get it, and I remember the feeling of getting home, opening it up and being so blown away by the layers, textures, dynamics, lyrics, artwork…everything. A true masterpiece that was the soundtrack to my life then & now. Long, dark nights of depression that this record helped me through but now stands as a testament to life, love, and endless possibilities. Eternally grateful for this album.

Infinite Brightness

Miyu JP

This album touches my heart every single time. When I was feel down, MCIS made me feel so relieved more than once…  
I especially love the lyrics from this part of Tonight, tonight.
That life can change that you’re not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we’re different
Tonight, So bright
I want to say thank you so much for this beautiful, magnificent, gentle album.
Lots of love.

Radio Dreams

Woo Baltimore, MD, US

I was in high school in ’95, and I had this cheap radio/cassette recorder that I would listen to before going to bed, usually to the big alt-rock station at the time (WHFS). I would have to put my ear right up next to it though, as the volume knob was broken and it would only play super quietly. SP was one of my favorite bands at the time, and one night the station started playing SP’s live debut of MCIS and I hit record on the cassette tape I had in there so fast. It was late at night but I just held my ear up to the radio for the entire performance and fell asleep elated after having heard one of the best albums of all time.