As a child, I lived in a very sheltered rich white suburb with not much to do. The people were bland, all the same. Having grown up in the 2000s once I discovered my passion for music it was hard to find good influences. Everyone around me listened to garbage rap. I found a friend who helped me thrive in finding music, still my very best friend to this day. During that period, he showed me the song 1979 which was what first lead me to the pumpkins. That song always reminds me of that year with him, not just because of the nostalgia, but the song really related to us. Anyway, after hearing that I ended up listening to Siamese Dream, which I fell in love with. Not the first grunge album I listened to but it made me realize my taste in music. Once I finally listened to MCIS tho… oh my god it changed my life. I had never felt like I had connected with someone on such an emotional level through their art. Through his lyrics, beautiful guitar and piano melodies, I could feel Billy Corgan’s emotions. I was going through a really hard time dealing with my perception of the world, as we all at some point reach. A “spiritual awakening” of sorts. Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness made me feel less alone during the worst part of my life, and for that I want to thank Billy Corgan, as well as D’arcy, jimmy and James.