As a 20 year old Emirati girl who spent most of her childhood and somewhat adulthood alone i have always sought refuge in mellon collie and the infinite sadness. My life changed when my brother made me listen to 1979  for the first time in 2010. Finding out about the smashing pumpkins was the sort of comfort i needed in order to survive and disconnect from the world. I truly live by the lyric “the more you change the less you feel” and think about it daily. I’m grateful for the existence of the album that changed me and the way i deal with my emotions. This album and the memory of my brother MJ excitingly making me watch every single music video on youtube will always mean the world to me.