Sophomore year I have grandma pick me up at school I’m sick or so I say . We go to Kmart Behold Mellon Collie is out grandma is persuaded to buy a double disc I think for like 24$ The album sums up my childhood -my adolescent misfit teens. I was a 16 year old drug addict who loved the mayhem of tales of scorched earth the tenderness of the title track and cried To myself listening to in the arms of sleep or to forgive. The album is so full of riff awesomeness I still listen to it and inspire myself to write and be creative.  It brings the feelings I had then to the forefront it’s better than a yearbook signed from all your friends. One of the older kids I knew borrows the second disc he didn’t return it fast so I was stuck with just side one for a month. I got disc 2 back and it is still my favorite side of the album. I remember thinking with all the night imagery  and the way Corgan started looking in the Zero video and certain articles around that time thinking maybe they were Vampires. I was of course an impressionable kid with a drug problem. It didn’t straighten my path but it was along for the ride.  I had a band and we got tickets for the tour and our favorite drummer gets kicked out and we have to wait for them to return with Filters drummer who was good but just not Jimmy.  We still debate what Billy said at the concert during Silverfuck about his album came out called Bleach . I think he was on a anti -Courtney speech and they brought the dude from the Frogs .Come Christmas we get the Aeroplane flies high boxset both me and my best friend. I  still have both the album and box set. The boxset will be buried with me. That’s how much it means to me. More than a hug more than any drug that album has held me in its soundscape  for so many years. The pace And quantity in which Billy was writing just shows he was an antenna for something to channel through him and I’m eternally thankful!!