Jr. year of high school, 1995.  Had been listening to SP for over a year now.  Had finally gotten past the death of Kurt and was wanting something new.   Heard Gish, Siamese Dream, and Pisces…loved it all.   First saw it he video of “Bullet with Butterfly Wings” on MTV and had found what I had been searching for as a 16 year old kid could.  Blown the fuck away by the visuals and sounds.  When Mellon Collie finally dropped, my mom bought the album on cassette tapes, and they were played to death.  That album helped shape who I would become later in life.  I still have the first CD copy of it. This band, their music has saved me from myself numerous times, even to this day.  I’ll forever be grateful for them saving me even though “I still believe that I cannot be saved”.